Melon-Sea

   为什么会这样呢？其实我也不太懂，他怎么会这样子？当一个人遇到自己100%需要的又100%需要自己的人时就会这样吧。

   当Michael遇到他100%需要的又100%需要的COCO时，时间变快了。

   我想了想，说道，嗯，我也爱COCO。但愿与你共同沐浴在泰国的阳光海滩上，看着热带气候带肤色和说着曲折语的人们，歌颂着我们的爱。

本人终于奔到2啦~~

想结婚了......

                                                                                                       2009/9/28

主人好懒哦~任由小窝发霉哦~~~偶尔上来发点东西嘛，让大家知道博主还健在........嘻嘻

    如题，好日子过到头了。我又要返回那个可怕蒸炉里焗桑拿。稀拉拉的汗水从身体里渗出来，人就会进入一种莫名其妙的状态，不知应做什么，更不想做什么。宿友告诉我，那天楼上有人在半夜里喊了句：好热！过了半响，又是一句，我操你妈。没人知道他操谁妈，当然我知道无论指物对象是谁都是不好的。

    我推开宿舍的门，由于终日用窗帘遮住的缘故，光线十分昏暗，里面温度大概比外面高1.5°左右。我坐了似乎还很干净的椅子，打开了电脑——它已经放了43天的假了。真是条件反射，电脑这种东西，我不知道该怎么说好。我看到我桌子上的两本书，《我在美国教英语》，这是我去新东方兼职前看的一本书，里面有许多教案，感觉不错，虽然我一个也没用；《NGO市场营销、筹募与问责》，多好的一本书，里面阐述了大量关于NGO的市场策略，然而很不幸地，对我们JNU SIFE来说，这些屠龙之技依然无用。我突然感到那书是一个个气泡，里面倒映着另一个世界的影子，漂浮在空中，人们用放大镜看它们，期望得到什么，指导、理论、知识。但影子也只是影子。我的世界，也只是一个更大更具体的气泡，但它并不坏。

    气泡炸开来。对了，我的书已经40天没有还，按照规定，要被扣去9.8元了。罢了，少喝些牛奶吧。

    明天去就家教的事情跟面谈，地点是在，恩，天河东路与岗顶交界处的一个B字开头的咖啡店。我知道，日本人喜欢在咖啡店见面。但这个咖啡店在哪儿呢，哎。

    接下来的是什么？全然不知。

    其实才刚刚开始。我坐上车，切开一片虚无，向你奔去。

     奋斗完了在新东方越狱营的第24天，我终于要回广州了。我在办公室里，在宿舍里狂想着回家的旅程。

     转眼间我回到了广州，却开始想念起我的学生来。

     Jacky, Bond, Peter, Lily, Chris, Tina, Tracy, Belinda........Yoyo, Neyo, Boey, Blue, Vicky, Manchester(- -!), Kirov, Bob(省实的校友哦), Star, Kathy........so many of you.

     回想起这些日子，我还是会有点失落的。我常会想，或许我不是个好老师吧。经常在黑板上写着乱七八糟的板书，吹起水来连自己也不知道自己在说啥，何况还是用英文，搞得很多人在评价表上都写到“听不懂Michael老师在说什么”……经常拼错单词，经常讲课本上那些无聊的TOPIC，经常带动不起同学们的课堂气氛。但大家居然能容忍我，并且最终带着笑容，甚至是泪水，离开了夏令营。我感动了，因为得到了自己不应该拥有的东西。

     说到最让我感动的事情，那是在第一期夏令营，我班里一个叫Lily的小女孩。Lily是一个典型乖乖女，她上课的专心致志程度，甚至能让我感到羞愧——因为我有时觉得我的乱七八糟的备课对不住她的专心。每次我在课上问到一个问题，Lily都会很积极地，用断断续续的英语回答出来，而且回答得十分好，除了不太流畅之外。一开始我以为，这个小女孩还没适应全英语的教学环境吧，所以回答得总是结结巴巴的。

     后来有天晚上，她找到了我，很认真地看着我说道:"Michael, could I ask you a question?"

     "Of course."

     "I ha...have a ss..stammer（口吃）, what should I do? Because when I am in school, I can't speak Chinese very well, nor does English, but I want to speak English well..."

     我和我的搭档Denis都沉默了。后来，Denis跟她讲了一个故事，虽然我忘了，但是是励志的。

     第二天，我班举行演讲比赛，题目很白痴也很伟大：“I have a dream”。为什么说很白痴呢，因为很多同学跟我抱怨说，我们还很小，我们不知道我们以后干什么，所以我们没有dream。的确，dream这个玩意儿，真大，似乎不太适合小学毕业生。

     同学们陆陆续续演讲完了，发表了他们关于世界，社会，以及许多比较有想象力的dream。这时，到Lily了。她站上台，很有自信地吸了一口气，说道：

     "Ladies and gentlemen, good morning, today the topic of my speech is I HAVE A DREAM. Many people have very big dream, some of them want to change world, some of them want to change the society, but I just have a very small dream. "

     "To tell you the truth, I have a stammer. So, in my school, I cannot speak Chinese very well, so I cannot communicate with the other student very well. I want to say my thoughts, so I have to speak very very slowly or people would not understand me..."

     "So I have a dream, a small dream, that one day, I can speak normally as the other people... "

     多么小的一个梦，只不过就是想要和其他同学一样，正常地说话而已。有时候，我们常常会有些不切实际的幻想，但却没想到，对某些人来说，我们已经拥有了她梦想的一切。这样一个女生，是班上最勇敢的孩子。要知道那些口齿伶俐的男生们，都无意于表现自己。

     谢谢你Lily，是你告诉了我梦想是什么。

    Oh god damn, I'm so hungry now, and what have I done? Last night, I've seen 5 different vision of Nobody, and it really drives me crazy, I can even dance that a little bit......Wonder Girls is WONDERFUL!

    Despite of that, I've eaten 2 bowls of rice, drank 2 bottle of yoghourt,  walked as far as 5000 steps, peered 26 girls passed me by in the street, none of them were pretty though.......well, I guess I'm little bit fed up with the tail gas, disguisting.......

    I met my old friend, who has just come back from Chengdu, complaining that he's got a little bit shorter due to the basin city. There must be something wrong with the devices, but, maybe he's right I guess.

    Well, frankly speaking, I've done nothing constructive, neither today nor yesterday. I gave myself excuse: it is holiday, why don't you just set aside the work and kick up your heels? Actually, everyday is like holiday recently......anyway, I accepted it, then lived in the fool's paradise......

    Sometimes, though I've got a lot of things to do, but I still have no motivation to do it. That do harm to me, but I just keep hanging around, delay the work to the last second......Whay?Why?Why? Why do I lose with my sense of nervousness.

    See, it's a standoff, it's the worst dilemma......I'm not doing anything, and I'm not going to kick up my heels completely and naturally...- -

    Tomorrow is English examination, haven't revise yet, got a bad feeling, hope I won't screw it up.......